My daddy October 18, 2008

My dad died in March 2006, I miss him every single day but sometimes more so than ever. Today is one of those days.

He died so unexpectedly, of a heart attack whilst he was at a spinning class. I can’t really describe it all today because it will get me too upset.

I just miss him so much. It’s not fair. He’ll never get to give me away at my wedding, he never got to see how well I’m doing in my career, I never even got to introduce him to my Prince Charming. It makes me so sad.

He was a great man with a great sense of humour. See below, at a fancy dress party with my mum!

My dad the duck

I really try to live by the principle that everything happens for a reason but I really struggle to find the reasoning behind this one. I’d give anything to have him back.

Memories October 5, 2008

So I’ve just got back from a weekend in Ireland, introducing Prince Charming to my grandfather. I’m feeling absolutely drained, three days of inane conversation with my 80yr old grandad is tiring.

I feel sad coming away from Ireland, it’s changed so much since my childhood and that’s the Ireland I wanted to show Prince Charming. Don’t you sometimes wish you could just download your memories into your partner / friends’ head? I wish I could have shown him the places, things and people which made me so happy during my childhood.

The whole place was full of happy memories for me. But that’s made me so sad, that things have changed so much. Two of the people who made my happy memories are no longer here. Change does funny things to me. It panics me! Things change constantly though.

Motto for this week is “get used to it” me thinks